I haven't posted in forever. Why? Well, I kind of lost my running mojo. My last race was Ragnar del Sol in February (which was the most fun I've had in years!) and for some reason, I just couldn't get back into a routine after that.
Life's been all over the place for me since the fall. Normally running would be my outlet. But I just couldn't get past all the junk in my life and get back on the pavement. Teaching, taking classes, kids, adjusting to life as a single parent, trying to manage my now-precarious financial situation....it was just too much. I've been in "treading water" mode. Lots of nights of crying myself to sleep from all the stress so I could put on my game face the next day.
Thursday evening I was running on the dreadmill while my son was at swim practice. And I kind of had an epiphany: I don't want to just tread water anymore. I want to full-out swim.
As I was plugging away, I was reflecting back on when I first really got into running about four years ago. I couldn't go two miles with stopping at least once or twice. But I kept going. Then I was able to go two miles without stopping. Then I was able to run a mile in 10 minutes. And then one day I was under 10 minutes and I was so excited! Now, four years, eight 1/2 marathons, one full marathon, and a Ragnar relay later....I'm consistently running sub-9 minute miles (not for as many miles as I would like....yet!). I know, to many of you that's not that fast. But for me...I never thought I'd get here. And I'm still working on getting faster.
So what was the key? I just kept going. And I want to translate that into the rest of my life. I'm just going to keep going. It's not always going to be pretty, it certainly won't be easy, but if I keep chipping away, I'll get there.